Winds of Change

For the first time ever I have not been called home this autumn, I have not felt that feeling of something just out of reach. It feels so different, there is a feeling of something else happening to me now, other things are evoking memories. I think I am right, I was probably meant to go home last year and by cheating death I have changed my path. I don't want to be lost anymore. I can feel that something has shifted. I am writing a brand new story every day on fresh paper, a book closed last year. I am learning to go with the flow, what will be will be. I know I have survived for a reason, I was saved for a reason. Perhaps now it is time for me to start living, let go of the past and all the hurt, look forward and love as much as I can. Time to rise from the ashes. I have no idea what lies ahead of me but it must be good for me to have waited for it for so long. I am standing facing this world alone right now and I am so frightened sometimes but I am alive, I can love, laugh and be loved and that is what life is all about.